Easter has come and gone and while I tried my hardest to focus on the real meaning of why we celebrate Easter to begin with, in the back of my mind, there was still that stabbing pain that things were not as they should have been. This year, Easter should have been different for my family. We should have had our nearly one-year-old son dressed for church in his new outfit. He should have been hunting Easter eggs with all the other children and been a part of the big family get-together.......but he wasn't. Another holiday without my baby boy.
Instead, Adam and I went to visit him at his grave. This has become our new family tradition. While we never would've dreamed that starting a new family tradition would include this, we have the promise that this tradition will not last forever.
One day, we will see our little boy face to face and we will no longer have to spend holidays, or any day for that matter, separated from him.
Our pastor preached a wonderful sermon on Easter Sunday about the promise of eternal peace that God offers us. It brought tears to my eyes to think of how much God has blessed me with His peace this past year. There have been times when I thought my pain would surely bring me to my ruin, but time after time, there was that still, small voice that brought light into my darkened world.
Although the pain of losing Landon is still so great, I have felt the fullness of Christ's love like never before. He has taught me what it means to be comforted by His peace and it is by His mercy and grace that my faith is being strengthened. It is only because of His resurrection that I have God's promise of peace and hope. God brought thunderclouds and disasters into my life when all I really wanted was green pastures and still waters. I realize now that that was the only way His refining fire could do its work.
I'm looking forward to the day of Christ's return!
Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ! In His great mercy he has given us new birth into a living hope through the resurrection of Jesus Christ from the dead, and into an inheritance that can never perish, spoil or fade- kept in heaven for you"
1 Peter 1:3-4
In His Love....
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Lindsey we love you both so much. We look forward to the day when we can see and play with Landon. Thank you for sharing your heart with all of us. God is using you in an amazing way to remind us of His Grace and Love even when life hurts.
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